The journey continues as I walk within and align with my soul. I wake after only a few hours of sleep. Bloody hell, I had such a great day of sun & nature to nurture myself. Now my mind races like ghostly horses with the bit in their mouth. The tangled thoughts and feelings escape Pandora's box within my heart. Oh great! My past loves, I do meditation with a sincere inventory, and tears flow. I realize I need to once again make amends with someone from my past. But I desire to stay mindful. I ask why? What are my intentions behind it? You should know I have been Codependent in recovery for 30 years. I won't go into the past because it has led me to now—the ghostly horses racing through my head whisper to me. Listen! Feel your fears—more tears flow.
I decided not to contact them directly. But to send sincere amends from my heart. I didn't know what I didn't know then. The more I know, the less I know. Then I forgave myself for acting out of fear. I did love you. I still do and always will. I share these thoughts and feelings to slow these ghostly horses down to a walk. As I pet them, their beautiful bodies relax. I whisper rest now, rest now. I love you. I Have always loved you since the beginning of time. I embrace them. They slowly dissipated like a mist swirling around me. My heart opens just a little bit more. I remember sometimes it can get lonely on my stardust pathway home. One can feel lonely even when surrounded by Angels, you know. Listen, in the quiet solitude within, in the distance; you can hear the music from the spheres. Won't you dance with me along the way?  
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As an Empath seeing myself has always been a challenge.  I have found the world around me serves as a moment to moment reflection of my personal vibrational essence.  Over analyzing
can cause me to spiral out of control within my mind.  Through this journey some souls have been difficult for me to embrace.  The judgement or speck in their eye is but a reflection of my own.  By surrendering it to my Soul.  To embrace my darkness gently with LOVE and allow it to transform within my heart.  

We truly are all connected on a Divine scale.  Sometimes it is difficult to hold that perspective.  It can be uncomfortable.  But for myself, being uncomfortable is a great place to stretch and grow spiritually.  I am Singing My Soul Song now.

As I sit here in the sun this morning having coffee, I am reminded it was not long ago that my view from my back door felt scary, and in a survival mode.  Even though I knew there was something better.  The only way for me to get to a higher place was through the gateway of my heart.  Which terrified me then. I felt if I worked hard and went to battle with my inner darkness I could get through that gateway.  But my fears kept the gate locked tight.  I was exhausted and felt defeated. Then I tried to surrender completely. My Fears of not feeling good enough, rejection, judgement, and worst not having my love returned.  It was a “pandora's box” of fear locked up tight in my heart.  Every time I would take a chance and unlock it all the fears would fly out.  I would get terrified to my core and run away after locking them away deep inside again.  Afraid to let anyone see how vulnerable I felt.  The lie! “If they saw I was vulnerable they would hurt me.”

I have been unpacking my Pandora's box one fear at a time.  I am Gently, loving each one taking them out into the Divine light to be transformed into bubbles of love.

One of the gifts in life is free will.  Opportunities present themselves in each moment.  I chose to embrace a moment this moment shared in writing with another heart out there.  My journey is to connect heart to heart with other souls and love, simply love. This is My Soul Song and I will share the journey with you as it unfolds for me.

My gift to myself is to LOVE myself enough to walk through the gate of my heart to help create a happier, more loving world here and now.  Namaste

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