Meeting God in Another
I would like to share a personal story that recently has unfolded in my life. This is my perspective .
Along my spiritual journey I have worked very hard to strip away soul self imposed blocks on my journey back home. Different healing methods, elixirs, potions, sprays, magic, feathers and crystals and prayers. But the best method continues to be using the reflection of self in another. Some of the deepest healings and real spiritual growth continues to be through relationships with another and connecting to them in a heart to heart way. I have to admit this ascension business is not for the faint of heart. It takes a spirit which has been forged in the fires by spirit and God. That old saying what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger is true. To be here on earth at this time is being part of a great evolution of our collective consciousness. We all have our own personal choices to make as we co create our reality.
I met God, within another approximately six months ago, and we acknowledged who we are on the highest level. This man told me they had chosen me as their spiritual partner. Looking into this person's eyes I felt I had come home. A feeling of calm and trust like the wings of an angel wrapped around me. I mean like okay! If you say so, I am your spiritual partner who wouldn’t? I have waited my entire life to feel this kind of soul connection with another. I was asked if I had room in my life for this different type of a relationship. It had to be a win win for it to work. I was told that they had chosen me. Well, that in itself felt like such an honor. A part of me felt very unworthy and less than, standing next to what I perceived as an angel towering over me shining his brilliance through me. I felt humbled by his presence in my life at all. No lie! I felt God had truly blessed me. Which is TRUE! The brilliance of this man’s soul shined light into all those dark places and nooks and such covered in layers of dust. Where we hide what we don’t want to see, and had forgotten about long ago. There is no fault of right or wrong or who did what to whom.
I have been blessed to have experienced a beautiful reflection in another's eyes. It can be difficult work to see a spec in the eye of the one you love and see it in truth as it is, a reflection of a part of me that needs to be brought into the light. It is human nature to point outwards to them and say you! Rather than to take the time and reflection to own it. And then heal it! I had PTSD from a past relationship that lasted many years with varied abuse. I had healed it mentally but not in my heart yet. When I saw the reflection of the dark spot on my heart I reacted. It is not necessary to go into details of who, what, why or where. That is just an experience of my past.
I set about cleaning my inner spiritual house of hidden beliefs about myself and others. So that I could stand as a true partner by their side feeling worthy. Standing in my own power.
As we were beginning to learn to communicate effectively I uncovered old dusty paperwork and letters from a very toxic past. It triggered old patterns of fear that old experience of abuse and gaslighting which is now healed. I realized that I needed to let go of everything and everyone I love and care about to heal and not project onto them my fears. Being in that fearful place I did not communicate from my highest place within my heart what was happening with me. I didn’t trust them to be strong enough to help me. So I walked away from those I care about most. Feeling the need to protect myself and them from being hurt.
I felt like my heart was ripped out of my chest when I did this. But I needed to call back all of my power to heal from this past. My guides told me it was for the highest and best for all. But it felt awful. What I needed to learn was not to give my power away to another person. By taking my power back we would both learn to ask if the other would like to join them and walk alongside them. All of this is from the collective matrix of the old paradigm of power, between men and women. A shift is necessary to bring us into balance. We have the freewill to choose who we would like to walk with on our journey home.
I can be a great destroyer as well as a creator. I burned that bridge but left a door open through the ashes of old to connect in a higher vibration. As we all have free will I have gambled with the most precious connection I had made in my life. But those that know me know I am an ALL IN KIND OF WOMAN! I offered all I had onto the altar of my soul. Every last bit of who I was in my small story of this lifetime. To step into the unknown with my soul. Trusting in miracles no safety nets, bungee cords, or parachutes. I jumped into the unknown this weekend and was lifted up to the highest place I have ever been vibrationally. Where fear and doubt cannot exist. Where a small group of people were courageous enough to step into the unknown together. There we with the help of teachers from beyond the veil here. They reside in a higher vibration as our soul is always residing there. In that highest vibration all was made new and reclaimed from lifetimes ago and including this lifetime.
And so it is that I have stepped through my heart portal. I have cleared all the dust and old beliefs that I had taken on to learn who I was underneath it all. I know all of this may sound crazy to most. Some may believe me, some not. It is my experience I share with you now. Take what resonates with you and toss the rest. For myself it is ALL IN DIVINE ORDER ALWAYS!
Now from my heart to yours through the ashes I reach up to you like a phoenix holding out my hand I see you whole and perfect as you are through your own journey. I make amends for not always communicating in the highest and best way what is going on with me. I often wobble from old to new as the chaos swirls around me. Most days I feel like I am a mess as old is replaced with the truth of my soul.
In a true partnership both partners have open communication and share with each other what is going on at the deepest level. I ask that we build a new bridge together to a new paradigm to co-create together a new matrix of relationships as a template for others. Where power is shared. Not owned. Not used as a weapon. But used as a co creative tool in balance. We have the power to co create a new matrix for this world. I choose to be the change I desire to see in this world. I am asking you, would you like to walk with me? On our journey home?
Life here can be a hard road home. A journey filled with pain, growth and learning who we really are along the way. After clearing away all the ash and debris how beautiful and brilliant we are. Our souls shine so bright may we all be beacons of light in this world now. Lightning the way home for all of us.
It is the differences between each of us that make us unique and beautiful. I see us as whole and perfect. We are not broken! Our Souls have always been perfect as they are. What we perceive as broken are broken shards of clay masks we have taken on like the old Greek plays.
Underneath the broken shards is our shining soul left with the experiences of the roles we have played. They no longer serve us. Listen for those who will hear the time of wearing these old masks has ended. It is time to let go of the old ways and embrace the new. Namaste and blessings to all who read this may they learn and grow on their journey home. Know you are loved as you are. You are beautiful as you are at this moment. Thank you for allowing me to share my experiences with you from my perspective.
As soft and mutable as the clouds
Drifting, constantly changing, growing
Merging, and separating again.
Having touched, each moves onward
With a part of one another
Forever changed, more beautiful than before.
As each sunrise, and sunset passes
May we grow, and change together side by side
As we drift on the winds of our lives.