Meeting God in Another
I would like to share a personal story that recently has unfolded in my life. This is my perspective .
Along my spiritual journey I have worked very hard to strip away soul self imposed blocks on my journey back home. Different healing methods, elixirs, potions, sprays, magic, feathers and crystals and prayers. But the best method continues to be using the reflection of self in another. Some of the deepest healings and real spiritual growth continues to be through relationships with another and connecting to them in a heart to heart way. I have to admit this ascension business is not for the faint of heart. It takes a spirit which has been forged in the fires by spirit and God. That old saying what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger is true. To be here on earth at this time is being part of a great evolution of our collective consciousness. We all have our own personal choices to make as we co create our reality.
I met God, within another approximately six months ago, and we acknowledged who we are on the highest level. This man told me they had chosen me as their spiritual partner. Looking into this person's eyes I felt I had come home. A feeling of calm and trust like the wings of an angel wrapped around me. I mean like okay! If you say so, I am your spiritual partner who wouldn’t? I have waited my entire life to feel this kind of soul connection with another. I was asked if I had room in my life for this different type of a relationship. It had to be a win win for it to work. I was told that they had chosen me. Well, that in itself felt like such an honor. A part of me felt very unworthy and less than, standing next to what I perceived as an angel towering over me shining his brilliance through me. I felt humbled by his presence in my life at all. No lie! I felt God had truly blessed me. Which is TRUE! The brilliance of this man’s soul shined light into all those dark places and nooks and such covered in layers of dust. Where we hide what we don’t want to see, and had forgotten about long ago. There is no fault of right or wrong or who did what to whom.
I have been blessed to have experienced a beautiful reflection in another's eyes. It can be difficult work to see a spec in the eye of the one you love and see it in truth as it is, a reflection of a part of me that needs to be brought into the light. It is human nature to point outwards to them and say you! Rather than to take the time and reflection to own it. And then heal it! I had PTSD from a past relationship that lasted many years with varied abuse. I had healed it mentally but not in my heart yet. When I saw the reflection of the dark spot on my heart I reacted. It is not necessary to go into details of who, what, why or where. That is just an experience of my past.
I set about cleaning my inner spiritual house of hidden beliefs about myself and others. So that I could stand as a true partner by their side feeling worthy. Standing in my own power.
As we were beginning to learn to communicate effectively I uncovered old dusty paperwork and letters from a very toxic past. It triggered old patterns of fear that old experience of abuse and gaslighting which is now healed. I realized that I needed to let go of everything and everyone I love and care about to heal and not project onto them my fears. Being in that fearful place I did not communicate from my highest place within my heart what was happening with me. I didn’t trust them to be strong enough to help me. So I walked away from those I care about most. Feeling the need to protect myself and them from being hurt.
I felt like my heart was ripped out of my chest when I did this. But I needed to call back all of my power to heal from this past. My guides told me it was for the highest and best for all. But it felt awful. What I needed to learn was not to give my power away to another person. By taking my power back we would both learn to ask if the other would like to join them and walk alongside them. All of this is from the collective matrix of the old paradigm of power, between men and women. A shift is necessary to bring us into balance. We have the freewill to choose who we would like to walk with on our journey home.
I can be a great destroyer as well as a creator. I burned that bridge but left a door open through the ashes of old to connect in a higher vibration. As we all have free will I have gambled with the most precious connection I had made in my life. But those that know me know I am an ALL IN KIND OF WOMAN! I offered all I had onto the altar of my soul. Every last bit of who I was in my small story of this lifetime. To step into the unknown with my soul. Trusting in miracles no safety nets, bungee cords, or parachutes. I jumped into the unknown this weekend and was lifted up to the highest place I have ever been vibrationally. Where fear and doubt cannot exist. Where a small group of people were courageous enough to step into the unknown together. There we with the help of teachers from beyond the veil here. They reside in a higher vibration as our soul is always residing there. In that highest vibration all was made new and reclaimed from lifetimes ago and including this lifetime.
And so it is that I have stepped through my heart portal. I have cleared all the dust and old beliefs that I had taken on to learn who I was underneath it all. I know all of this may sound crazy to most. Some may believe me, some not. It is my experience I share with you now. Take what resonates with you and toss the rest. For myself it is ALL IN DIVINE ORDER ALWAYS!
Now from my heart to yours through the ashes I reach up to you like a phoenix holding out my hand I see you whole and perfect as you are through your own journey. I make amends for not always communicating in the highest and best way what is going on with me. I often wobble from old to new as the chaos swirls around me. Most days I feel like I am a mess as old is replaced with the truth of my soul.
In a true partnership both partners have open communication and share with each other what is going on at the deepest level. I ask that we build a new bridge together to a new paradigm to co-create together a new matrix of relationships as a template for others. Where power is shared. Not owned. Not used as a weapon. But used as a co creative tool in balance. We have the power to co create a new matrix for this world. I choose to be the change I desire to see in this world. I am asking you, would you like to walk with me? On our journey home?
Life here can be a hard road home. A journey filled with pain, growth and learning who we really are along the way. After clearing away all the ash and debris how beautiful and brilliant we are. Our souls shine so bright may we all be beacons of light in this world now. Lightning the way home for all of us.
It is the differences between each of us that make us unique and beautiful. I see us as whole and perfect. We are not broken! Our Souls have always been perfect as they are. What we perceive as broken are broken shards of clay masks we have taken on like the old Greek plays.
Underneath the broken shards is our shining soul left with the experiences of the roles we have played. They no longer serve us. Listen for those who will hear the time of wearing these old masks has ended. It is time to let go of the old ways and embrace the new. Namaste and blessings to all who read this may they learn and grow on their journey home. Know you are loved as you are. You are beautiful as you are at this moment. Thank you for allowing me to share my experiences with you from my perspective.
As soft and mutable as the clouds
Drifting, constantly changing, growing
Merging, and separating again.
Having touched, each moves onward
With a part of one another
Forever changed, more beautiful than before.
As each sunrise, and sunset passes
May we grow, and change together side by side
As we drift on the winds of our lives.
A Soul Song
Forget me not
Look for me in the moonlight
Feel my embrace as the wind caresses you
Hear my voice in the song of nature
As the sunshine touches you
Feel the warmth of my Love
We had forgotten to listen
To the quiet voices within
I know I shall see you there
I am here, I am here, I am here
I am Free, I am Free, I am Free
We will reconnect and transcend
I have not forgotten
I will always be
Always and forever ME
Happy New Years Eve 12/31/21
You can’t get there from here
Hey! You can’t get there from here!
Locking up that FEAR
In your Heart you KNOW.
It needs to be released to show.
From your heart it can be expressed
Then let go, and you will be blessed.
Peace flows from within.
As we begin
To become centered in Self
You are given great abundance and wealth.
Not one can buy it!
So relax and let emotions speak
Through the HEART to temper the heat
Letting go frees us from pressure
So that life can be an adventure
Working together to help express
The Mind and Heart are not less
Through this bond ALL Darkness is now LIGHT
Now we are free to take flight
To soar higher than before
Off to distant shores
I found a way to bridge from here to there. Through a heart to heart connection. My writing which bridges time and space. Creating ripples for all who are drawn to read this and raise their vibration to fly.
Every morning is just like my journal, a blank clean page to write in. A fresh start, a new beginning! We have a choice to pick up old baggage of past experiences to drag about our day.
Or to choose to fly with angels. I wake up each morning and choose my angel. I choose to fly above the old past experiences to soar and co-create a higher love matrix in this world. At this moment right now! Right NOW!
I sip my coffee in silence feeling the peacefulness within radiating outward like the sun's rays. See the beauty of nature reflected in a raindrop. I pause and reflect that everything is perfectly perfect at this moment. Take another sip of coffee and realize that everything is connected deeply. I write in my journal, I am grateful for my connection with my angel and with all those whose path I come in contact with. Time to embrace the day. Then off to work I go.
I am not alone but in the company of angels! What do you choose for your day?
Sending & receiving opal essence of love always,
Good morning! I am sipping coffee at my desk. Listening to the birds singing. It is a pleasant Sunday morning after only a few hours of sleep. My thoughts muse over the idea of relationships. May I invite you into my experience?
What I am sure of is that I have always chosen my spiritual path first and foremost. I have strived for alignment with my soul to keep my peace of mind. Which I thought meant walking my path alone. Lord knows I am never really alone. Because I am clairaudient ( I hear and can have conversations with guides, angels, ascendant masters and such). If there was a hidden camera in my apartment or anywhere it would catch me having a conversation with any or all of them. Did I say Conversation? Half the time I am yelling you gotta be kidding me, flipping them off and a string of swearing to make a sailor blush. So I have not been alone, but in the company of those that dwell on a different plane. I enjoy their company, they understand me. They never judge me and bonus, if I am on track I get a golf clap. Yes, that’s right! You know those quiet claps ( It sounds like people clapping softly with gloves on) at a golf tournament. Even an ohhh softly spoken now and then . I sometimes refer to them as “the committee”.
On occasion I need to check my 3rd eye to see if there is a permanent dent from being hit by a 2x4 from my guides. So my guides can be very insistent , and to be fair I can be very stubborn. In the end I just should know better and follow what they are suggesting.
On a crisp Fall morning I sit with a steaming cup of Earl Grey tea. I am a storyteller and teacher in this lifetime. I share my personal experiences in story form. May I invite you to take in what resonates with you and leave the rest. I talk out loud to my spiritual guides. I feel their presence in my life always. Yes always! We have no secrets. Now sipping my tea, my mind drifts in remembrance of asking my guides for Love. I remember it well.
I had just moved into a lovely, two bedroom apartment in Walnut Creek California. I had an inner yearning to truly feel loved by another. It felt like an emptiness within. I thought it could be filled by a relationship. This was about 2005 on my timeline. I knew enough of magic and how to manifest my desires. I carefully created my intentions, great sense of humor, good looking, loving, fun, loyal, available emotionally, and more. I added my heartfelt feelings to draw the perfect unconditional love relationship. I went about getting the right potions, oils, herbs and candles to assemble to draw this love into my life. On an evening in Summer I cast my net wide and far with magic. Then let it go. The rest is letting go. Trusting the Divine and my guides to handle the details. With a happy heart, filled with gratitude,knowing that all will manifest better than I can picture for myself. Have you ever heard the phrase? “Be careful what you ask for”?
A few weeks later, I was waiting for my son and his wife to come by and pick me up to go to the movies. I was sitting by the open dining window. A gentle breeze blew the curtains out into a billow which looked like a head sail. On this breeze I heard a bird sing loud and clear. It was not like anything I had ever heard before in our neighborhood. It drew me to look outside and see if I could identify what bird it was. I scanned the treetops, and roof tops. There directly across from my window on the rooftop was a small green bird. We are talking bright lime green. He was calling out loudly. So I yelled back, “what?” he paced a little and yelled out to me again. Okay, what do you want? I asked. He then flew right over my building across the street.
I followed to find him way up in a tree. I stood below and told this bird I am not chasing you. If you are meant to be in my life you know where I live. You can come to me! Just then my son pulled up and saw me with hands on hips talking to the trees. Nothing to see here folks, I waved and I laughed out loud. Jumped into my son's truck and off to the movies and fun evening with my family. I returned home and walked across the street to see if my little guy was still there. I couldn’t find him! I promptly went back home and went to sleep. The next morning was a lazy warm summer Saturday. I opened up my place while it was still cool enough and sipped my coffee. Talking to a friend on the phone I told her of my adventure with the bird. We laughed and wondered about the meaning. Standing at my screen door I saw my neighbor on her hands and knees looking under a parked car across the street. I called out what did you find? She said she thought there was a kitten. I opened the screen door and stepped out to talk with her. Her husband was at my front step and turned to me and said, “ Look Out! Be careful or you will step on him.” I looked down and at my feet was the bird. I squatted down and held out my hand. I said, ``Hey buddy, how are you? He stepped up into my hand. I offered him water and he drank. He ran around my kitchen floor chasing the small cat ball with a jingle bell in it. We played fetch and I laughed as he clowned around. One of the qualities I desired was a great sense of humor. I swear I heard my guides laughing. Here was the love I had asked for. My Buddy! We had our laughter, fun times and yelling matches. We were together for about 10 years. He left and transitioned in the winter of 2015.
So, in fond memory of My Buddy Bird my lovebird who found me and stayed with me until death. One of the best teacher's I have had on love to date.
Moral of this story is: When we ask for something it is always given. Always so much more than we can picture for ourselves. Stay open, expect something wonderful! Keep an open mind, have a sense of humor and expect miracles in your life. Life is so much more than what we can see. The DIVINE will always answer our requests for help in any and all areas. Expect the unexpected, keep an open heart. Life is magical, we are magical!
Today I let go of someone from the past . After thirty two years of feeling that heart connection. I let go in gratitude, love in grace. I desire to serve the greater good of mankind. I choose to step into this new moment. I am grateful for all I have experienced. Now I deeply appreciate the light and fresh new beginnings we can all have in each moment. Each of us can choose to walk through the gateway of the heart. I have no idea nor can I see the future at this time. I am walking on a bridge between past and future with faith in Divine to catch me if I stumble. Faith that we can each do this if called to do so. Faith that we are always taken care of. Faith that I am worthy of having an abundant, loving life, better than I can picture for myself. So much grander, so much more. I trust my soul to take one step closer to be of service to all of mankind. Let my heart radiate divine love like a lighthouse beacon bringing others safely home. To step forward and trust I will be provided for. I choose to create the change I desire to see in the world. Serving the greater good of all of us. Sharing All of who I am with who ever needs light to help them on their own personal journey. Thank you for allowing me to share a small fraction of my journey. May it be helpful to another soul out there reaching for the light. I take one step closer to alignment with my soul. Namaste
I have always worked with Angels. Through my life as an empath the journey has been a scenic drive getting from point to point. No freeways, only winding roads and never knowing where I am most days. I can see clearly for others but not for myself. When I was alone as a child angels sat with me. When my mother transitioned at age Thirteen my angels were there to walk with me pouring strength and love for me to keep going. When I was abused they were there loving me. When I danced on the beach and at golden gate park panhandle in the 60’s they danced with me. Gentle loving, never judging. When I cried and laughed they were there. Through a difficult marriage they brought joy into my life through my children, and friends.
Sometimes Angels come through animals. The cat or dog who loves us unconditionally. When I had my heart attack two dolphins swam by me in the ocean. The doctor had said where I had the heart attack was called the widow maker. You rarely live through them. I like to believe the dolphins helped me vibrationally. Sometimes they come through people in kindness. I was flying home after I had the heart attack. To qualify, I didn’t know I had one. The doctors said I should have died because of the altitude. But the kindest man took the seat next to me, bought me a soda and we watched videos about Hawaii, all the while laughing and sharing stories about what we had in common.
There are also soul reflections. People who come into our life who are like soul mirrors for us. I have been blessed to have three to date. That has been a full spiritual mirror. These always have a spiritual gift within the friendship. Many times I have had spiritual friendships where I can see a partial reflection and continue to work on myself.
But Oh the sweetness of those precious full spiritual reflections. These Souls are a true yin and yang of balance. It has been my experience that My soul expands and grows through these times. I feel the wings of angels embracing me as I write. Angels are messengers of light, we just have to ask for help and it is answered. Rarely in the limited way we perceive but in an expanded better experience if we are open to it. So much more, better than I ever pictured for myself.
Each day I get one step closer to home. I am grateful for the experiences. Life is so rich in it’s experiences. Embrace it, cherish it. A gift of experience of so much more than we could picture for ourselves. It’s like a flower unfolding, getting more beautiful and fuller as it opens. Let the fragrance envelop you and take you into the richness.
The journey continues as I walk within and align with my soul. I wake after only a few hours of sleep. Bloody hell, I had such a great day of sun, & nature to nurture myself . Now my mind races like ghostly horses with the bit in their mouth. The tangled thoughts and feelings escape Pandora's box within my heart. Oh great! My past loves, I do meditation with a sincere inventory,and tears flow. I realize I need to once again make amends with someone from my past. But I desire to stay mindful, I ask why? What are my intentions behind it? You should know I am a Codependent in recovery for 30 years. I won’t go into the past because it has led me to now. The ghostly horses racing through my head whisper to me. Listen! Feel your fears. More tears flow. I decided to not contact them directly. But to send sincere amends from my heart. I didn’t know what I didn’t know then. The more I know , the less I know. Then I forgave myself for acting from fear. I did love you, I still do and always will. I share these thoughts and feelings as a way of slowing these ghostly horses down to a walk. As I pet them, their beautiful bodies relax. I whisper rest now, rest now. I love you. I Have always loved you since the beginning of time. I embrace them. They slowly dissipated like a mist swirling around me. My heart opens just a little bit more. Oh yes, I remember sometimes it can get lonely on my stardust pathway home. One can feel lonely even when surrounded by Angels you know. Listen, in the quiet solitude within, in the distance you can hear the music from the spheres. Won’t you dance with me along the way?