The Frozen Dancers
The Alchemist Archetype
Mary was listening to music and resting. Her thoughts drifted to travel. She missed some of the places she had been. Lately, she felt stuck in a repeating loop. Ah ha, she thought it was time for another journey inward to find the source of this feeling. She was slowly drifting into a relaxed state. She found herself once again within the void floating. So relaxing and peaceful.
Please take me to the place where I feel stuck. Mary's lower back felt the pressure. She walked through the mists to a new gate. The gate was rusted, stuck halfway open. Mary squeezed through the gate. A long twisting path was ahead. It was a beautiful forest path. As she walked, she saw a statue of a ballerina. She was beautiful. The statue was so lifelike; every detail was perfect. She was suspended in mid-air leap across the pathway. As the path twisted and turned its way, she came upon statues in a circle of children laughing—a moment in time like a picture. Mary still hadn't met any real people yet. But along the pathway, she saw many statues. Finally, the path opened up to a large meadow. In the center was a small cottage. Brambles and thorns surrounded her, so it kept everyone out.
Hello? Is there anyone there? Mary called out. Inside the cottage, she heard a voice. I am stuck inside, she said. Can you bring me something to eat and drink? Okay, said Mary. She had seen some berries by the stream and went to get them. She slipped and fell into the water as she gathered berries and water. Mary laughed out loud at herself. As she laughed, women and men dressed in black and white robes emerged behind the bushes. Who are you? We are the fun police. What? That's silly. They grabbed her arms tightly and took her to the Prince of the land.
She was caught laughing. No one is allowed to have any fun here. It is a land of quiet and prayer for deliverance from our sins. Kneel before the Prince Omnipresent of secret knowledge and ask for forgiveness. I will not! Said Mary. Then we will put you in the cottage of anger and sadness. What? NO! Suddenly a guard yelled Red Light. Everyone stood like a statue. Mary ran away and returned to the cottage to talk to the girl inside.
Hi, my name is Mary. What is your name? Rumpus, I get in trouble a lot. I feel so sad I am stuck here and can't get out. There is so much I would like to do. But I can not leave. So I sit here and try to get the guards to bring me goodies from Prince's kitchen. It is one of the few pleasures I have. But now I've gotten so large that it is hard to move around. It makes me feel so angry at the Fun Police and the Prince. You see, Prince Omnipresent is my brother. Just then, a guard called out Greenlight! Everyone raced around as if they had somewhere to go. But they ALL were running in circles. Rumpus said they don't listen to me anymore. I used to know where to go and what to do. But now I can't feel anymore, except for this deep longing to connect. An emptiness that is never filled no matter how much I eat.
How and when did all of this start? Mary asked. Rumpus said a long time ago when we were six years old. What happened? Rumpus told Mary her story. She was sent away from home to go live at a boarding school. She promised she would be good if her parents would just let her stay home. But, no matter what she did, she was always sent to school. Then, until she got into trouble, the school would send her home. So backward! If she was good, she stayed. If she was rebellious, she was sent home.
When she was two, My brother left because he felt no matter how good he was, he would never be good enough for the grandmother. We took in her beliefs of the church religious beliefs of my grandmother. She was holding the secrets of how to get to heaven. If you follow their rules, you might get out and go to heaven. But no one was that good ever. Not even the nuns or priests. We had to confess our sins of not following the rules every week. You cannot get away; GOD sees everything. When she was six years old, the school was restrictive in everything she could do. Even playtime was filled with rules. I came in from the school's collective energy. All the contrast of Nuns in control and children feeling hopeless. So here I sit, angry and sad.
So everyone left? I am confused. You are from all the children at school, with the nuns? Is the Prince from the church and grandmother? Yes. So where are the brother and sisters that belong here? I think they are close. Said Rumpus.
What a tangled mess. I think we can untie this and return everyone to the right place. Would you like that? Yes, very much. Okay, let's start with you, Rumpus. Would you like to go back to where you came from in the past so long ago? We want to thank you for helping us for such a long time. But now it is time for you to leave. Easily and effortlessly. As Mary spoke, Rumpus started to fade away slowly. So did the cottage and brambles. Mary was standing in the middle of the field for a few moments. She called out. Is there anyone there? We want to talk to the little girl who belongs here. Are you here? We are here to listen. A small voice said yes, I am here. What is your name? Mary asked. My name is Christine. Christine, would you like to come home again?
Yes, but I don't want to be alone anymore. You won't, we will find your true brother, and you can both reunite and become adventurers together. So come in and repeat after me these magical words, "I love you, please forgive me." Christine said them three times over. Each time she did the dancing, statues became dancing about like real people.
There were no fun police to stop them now. Now let's go to see the Prince. They walked toward Prince Omni and said we are so grateful for you holding this all together. But wouldn't you like to go back where you belong? I belong here. He took off his mask and tossed it to the ground. But how is this possible? It was the only way I could survive. Well, what is your real name? My name is Christopher. Would you like to reconnect with your real sister? Yes. Alright, hold hands, face each other, and repeat, "We are One." So they did, and the more they did, the more connected they became. A gentle breeze blew through the land. The breeze Swept away all that didn't belong, leaving just what was needed. In time Mary saw she had an "alchemist's hat" sitting on her head. What is this? All the people surrounded her and told her how much they loved her and that she was an Alchemist. She joined them all in a BIG circle around the rainbow spiral Tree of Life. Saying once again, "We are One." For the first time, Mary felt she was included in her family of body. She was no longer standing outside looking in. But part of her true inner family. Peace filled her up and was everywhere as far as she could see. All the secrets and answers are found within. You can discover them too.
Music flows through me
I feel every vibration within my being
It transports me to another dimension
As I move, I become one with it
what fun and adventure awaits
At this moment, with this music
Thank you for the dance
Mary finds out she is still carrying many beliefs from her childhood. However, these beliefs are false shadows. As an adult, she unravels and attempts to navigate her subconscious story landscape. First, a little girl of only two tried to be perfect for her grandmother. Finally, a girl only six years old was sent away to a catholic boarding school.
The experience was overwhelming for her emotionally. However, having no control over such an intense experience, she did the best she could at such a young age.
I am Mary Christine, My spiritual journey has led me here kicking and screaming most of the way to this present moment. I desire to be the change in the world I want to see. I am walking away from the old paradigm and stepping through the gateway of my heart into the New. I am not sure where this is going but I trust the alignment with my soul to get me there. Every Step of my journey has led me to this jump off point. I embrace all of it. I choose to jump into this new world with an open heart filled with love. Follow my journey, if you choose. From My Heart to Yours!