The Kingdom of the Heart
The Caretaker & Damsel Archetype
Mary asked herself why we fall in love with the people we do. She couldn't understand why her heart always picked men who were hurtful and or unavailable emotionally. Her head knew who she could trust. But her heart had a mind of its own, it seemed. So she wrote in her journal. It is a battle of head and heart. I vow to take care of myself better. I will have better discernment when dating. I will choose carefully. Maybe I should look for answers within myself. Yes, this new method has helped me to find and accept myself as I am.
Mary settled and allowed herself to drift into a deep quiet place. Then, as she walked through the mists of consciousness, she came upon a clearing, the Kingdom of the Heart. Here she met a traveling Shaman who told her about her story of the heart.
As the Shaman spoke, Mary could see the story unfolding before her like magic in his crystal.
There once was a maiden named Christine, who dwelled within the kingdom of the heart. The kingdom was beautiful. Love was in the air everywhere. The flowers bloomed in an eternal Springtime. She had been living behind the frozen walls of the kingdom for as long as she could remember. She had dreamed that someday she would find love. The tower in the castle had a lovely view of the whole kingdom. She could see many other people fall in love, but not her. In the past, she had chosen someone who had rejected her love. She had felt deeply hurt and vowed to herself never again. She was afraid to be loved. She didn't trust her own heart. So she asked an excellent, kind, brave knight to guard her and keep her safe when anyone approached. His name was Lawerence the Bold. He was beautiful and a light-hearted knight; he would turn away anyone who tried to reach her or get close. He never left his post at her side.
Over 20-plus years passed by, and they lived well and happily. The knight was at her side, and she would hide behind him. Many came close but didn't touch her, like finding the wrong puzzle piece that would not fit. As more time passed, the knight grew older and tired. But he never failed at his post. Christine stayed as youthful as she had been from the beginning, within. Her youth was frozen in time. She grew cold, inside and out, and said she would never believe in love. She often gave too much to others hoping they would like her. She felt no one could love her as she was. More time passed, and she became bitterly jealous of those who seemed to have found love. She became hard and judged others as being false, telling others what to do, and being very bossy. If she couldn't have love, then she would have control.
One day she walked by a big mirror. She was shocked to see her reflection. It was a young maiden with frost on her skin. Lines had frozen her face in a frown of disapproval. She moved closer to the mirror and saw the youthful girl frozen in time. She cried and cried and asked her knight if he would get the Shaman to help her.
Finally, the Shaman came after a lifetime of waiting. She called him to come closer and whispered for his help. He was a kind and gentle man with the magic to help her see deep within and far away. He gave her a magic seeing glass to look through. When she looked deeply into it, she saw that her brother Christopher was a perfect match, like a mirror image. He had left her when they were very young. The kingdom had been threatened to be ruined and destroyed. Her brother had left so that she could survive. Then, promising one day, they would reconnect. Christine had forgotten what had happened. She thought he had abandoned her when she needed him most to defend her. She would have been killed if he had stayed. Better for her to be seen as a defenseless young maiden. Not a threat to anyone.
She sent for Christopher to come home, but he could not get past the knight.
Christine asked the knight if he would like to rest, retire, and sit in the beautiful gardens. After so many years of flawless duty in protecting her and never taking time for himself. Now was the perfect time to say thank you and to let him go. "I release you from your service as a noble knight. May you know how grateful I am for all the years of service. Now you can drink a draft of excellent ale in the shade of the big tree outside. He deserved a long rest after so many years of guarding her. But he wanted to make sure that Christine would continue to be safe. The young brother and the old knight met at the gate. Christopher promised to watch over his sister to help her work. No longer will she feel alone with her brother to be there permanently as they had promised.
The young brother reached out to embrace his sweet sister. He kissed her gently on the top of her head. Suddenly the ice and frost began to melt away, and the fixed lines on her face softened to reveal the young maiden. They faced each other and held hands. The Shaman told them to say these magic words to each other so they would always stay together. "We are One! "magic swirled around them as they spoke, and they both felt connected again. No matter where they went, they were connected by a Green Spiral cord of genuine love. Which cannot be broken no matter how far apart they are. Magically they both had matured gracefully, and with that came discernment and wisdom. They took their rightful places in the castle as the proper Queen and King of Hearts. The young maiden had once looked far and wide for someone to love her. Now she had turned inward and loved herself with her brother's help. She allowed her own heart to mature and love herself.
Shaman asked, Would you like to connect with others that have healed? Okay then, please make a BIG circle and face inward, hold hands with those that have already connected within. The ring was enormous and included A Rainbow Spiral Tree of Life in the center. Please repeat out loud and together. "We are One." The sound of silence afterward fell lightly as peace within at last. The wave of soothing Green energy flowed over everyone and everything. It was adding to All.
The once frozen Streams that flowed through the kingdom now thawed and became unblocked to a never-ending flow of love and life for them to draw strength. They could drink from this crystal river as often as they desired. It renewed, refreshed, and strengthened them to continue. Now they had become the new proper Queen and King of Hearts. They rule with love and kindness, and discernment. The Green Spiral Gates of the kingdom are left open so all the people within the realm can come and go freely. There was plenty of love for everyone, endless renewing crystal streams throughout the kingdom for all to drink.
Now the knight sips his beer in the shade of the old tree, taking naps now and then. The kingdom's walls melted away with the warmth of love. It was allowing all that wished to come and visit. So Mary felt loved and waved goodbye to the Shaman on her journey to discover herself.
I invite you to come and visit the Kingdom of the Heart within. If you ask for help with a sincere heart, you can drink from this crystal river of LOVE within the Heart Kingdom.
We are the caretakers of the Garden of Paradise
Heaven is within
We Create Our Reality
Beliefs, feelings, words, and actions bring our world into form
As we discover who we are and hear the truth within
We become aware of our beauty and creativity
Unlimited Power flows from within
We have the key to unlocking the gate to our Garden of Paradise
It is our Heart!
Mary followed her inner wisdom, which is our Shaman. As we let go of what no longer serves us—our knight or shadow belief about self. We allow the light of truth to come forward and bring our superpowers.
The Frozen Dancers
The Alchemist Archetype
Mary was listening to music and resting. Her thoughts drifted to travel. She missed some of the places she had been. Lately, she felt stuck in a repeating loop. Ah ha, she thought it was time for another journey inward to find the source of this feeling. She was slowly drifting into a relaxed state. She found herself once again within the void floating. So relaxing and peaceful.
Please take me to the place where I feel stuck. Mary's lower back felt the pressure. She walked through the mists to a new gate. The gate was rusted, stuck halfway open. Mary squeezed through the gate. A long twisting path was ahead. It was a beautiful forest path. As she walked, she saw a statue of a ballerina. She was beautiful. The statue was so lifelike; every detail was perfect. She was suspended in mid-air leap across the pathway. As the path twisted and turned its way, she came upon statues in a circle of children laughing—a moment in time like a picture. Mary still hadn't met any real people yet. But along the pathway, she saw many statues. Finally, the path opened up to a large meadow. In the center was a small cottage. Brambles and thorns surrounded her, so it kept everyone out.
Hello? Is there anyone there? Mary called out. Inside the cottage, she heard a voice. I am stuck inside, she said. Can you bring me something to eat and drink? Okay, said Mary. She had seen some berries by the stream and went to get them. She slipped and fell into the water as she gathered berries and water. Mary laughed out loud at herself. As she laughed, women and men dressed in black and white robes emerged behind the bushes. Who are you? We are the fun police. What? That's silly. They grabbed her arms tightly and took her to the Prince of the land.
She was caught laughing. No one is allowed to have any fun here. It is a land of quiet and prayer for deliverance from our sins. Kneel before the Prince Omnipresent of secret knowledge and ask for forgiveness. I will not! Said Mary. Then we will put you in the cottage of anger and sadness. What? NO! Suddenly a guard yelled Red Light. Everyone stood like a statue. Mary ran away and returned to the cottage to talk to the girl inside.
Hi, my name is Mary. What is your name? Rumpus, I get in trouble a lot. I feel so sad I am stuck here and can't get out. There is so much I would like to do. But I can not leave. So I sit here and try to get the guards to bring me goodies from Prince's kitchen. It is one of the few pleasures I have. But now I've gotten so large that it is hard to move around. It makes me feel so angry at the Fun Police and the Prince. You see, Prince Omnipresent is my brother. Just then, a guard called out Greenlight! Everyone raced around as if they had somewhere to go. But they ALL were running in circles. Rumpus said they don't listen to me anymore. I used to know where to go and what to do. But now I can't feel anymore, except for this deep longing to connect. An emptiness that is never filled no matter how much I eat.
How and when did all of this start? Mary asked. Rumpus said a long time ago when we were six years old. What happened? Rumpus told Mary her story. She was sent away from home to go live at a boarding school. She promised she would be good if her parents would just let her stay home. But, no matter what she did, she was always sent to school. Then, until she got into trouble, the school would send her home. So backward! If she was good, she stayed. If she was rebellious, she was sent home.
When she was two, My brother left because he felt no matter how good he was, he would never be good enough for the grandmother. We took in her beliefs of the church religious beliefs of my grandmother. She was holding the secrets of how to get to heaven. If you follow their rules, you might get out and go to heaven. But no one was that good ever. Not even the nuns or priests. We had to confess our sins of not following the rules every week. You cannot get away; GOD sees everything. When she was six years old, the school was restrictive in everything she could do. Even playtime was filled with rules. I came in from the school's collective energy. All the contrast of Nuns in control and children feeling hopeless. So here I sit, angry and sad.
So everyone left? I am confused. You are from all the children at school, with the nuns? Is the Prince from the church and grandmother? Yes. So where are the brother and sisters that belong here? I think they are close. Said Rumpus.
What a tangled mess. I think we can untie this and return everyone to the right place. Would you like that? Yes, very much. Okay, let's start with you, Rumpus. Would you like to go back to where you came from in the past so long ago? We want to thank you for helping us for such a long time. But now it is time for you to leave. Easily and effortlessly. As Mary spoke, Rumpus started to fade away slowly. So did the cottage and brambles. Mary was standing in the middle of the field for a few moments. She called out. Is there anyone there? We want to talk to the little girl who belongs here. Are you here? We are here to listen. A small voice said yes, I am here. What is your name? Mary asked. My name is Christine. Christine, would you like to come home again?
Yes, but I don't want to be alone anymore. You won't, we will find your true brother, and you can both reunite and become adventurers together. So come in and repeat after me these magical words, "I love you, please forgive me." Christine said them three times over. Each time she did the dancing, statues became dancing about like real people.
There were no fun police to stop them now. Now let's go to see the Prince. They walked toward Prince Omni and said we are so grateful for you holding this all together. But wouldn't you like to go back where you belong? I belong here. He took off his mask and tossed it to the ground. But how is this possible? It was the only way I could survive. Well, what is your real name? My name is Christopher. Would you like to reconnect with your real sister? Yes. Alright, hold hands, face each other, and repeat, "We are One." So they did, and the more they did, the more connected they became. A gentle breeze blew through the land. The breeze Swept away all that didn't belong, leaving just what was needed. In time Mary saw she had an "alchemist's hat" sitting on her head. What is this? All the people surrounded her and told her how much they loved her and that she was an Alchemist. She joined them all in a BIG circle around the rainbow spiral Tree of Life. Saying once again, "We are One." For the first time, Mary felt she was included in her family of body. She was no longer standing outside looking in. But part of her true inner family. Peace filled her up and was everywhere as far as she could see. All the secrets and answers are found within. You can discover them too.
Music flows through me
I feel every vibration within my being
It transports me to another dimension
As I move, I become one with it
what fun and adventure awaits
At this moment, with this music
Thank you for the dance
Mary finds out she is still carrying many beliefs from her childhood. However, these beliefs are false shadows. As an adult, she unravels and attempts to navigate her subconscious story landscape. First, a little girl of only two tried to be perfect for her grandmother. Finally, a girl only six years old was sent away to a catholic boarding school.
The experience was overwhelming for her emotionally. However, having no control over such an intense experience, she did the best she could at such a young age.
The spiral within me
My new perspective of myself
Complete in myself is the wealth
Of all above and below
My purpose is to show
For all who desire to see
How to be eternally the spiral within me
Big Balloon People
The Shapeshifter Archetype
When Mary went to work yesterday, her coworkers were insulting her. Self-promoting and aggrandizing who they were presenting themselves to be. She felt overwhelmed when she finally got home. She couldn't understand why it bothered her so profoundly. It is time for another journey within, she said.
Relaxing on her sofa and going deep within, she found herself surrounded by huge people like hot air balloons. All of them were bouncing around and off each other. All were shouting out. I am the best salesperson. Looking at this from outside and observing, she started laughing. Apparently, she was in the land of networking and connecting to others' resources. Exactly where she needed to be. No one was listening, and everyone was promoting themselves. Perfect, Mary thought to herself.
One of the more prominent balloon people had a mask with several others in his pocket. He came close and shouted what are you laughing about? He changed masks, making him a big frightening wizard. Mary laughed harder and louder. She said who are you?
He said I am Albert, who becomes what other people need me to be. Yes, but who are you? He thought for a moment and spoke in a quieter voice; I don't know. I have been wearing so many masks for so long. Becoming what everyone wants me to be. All I ever wanted was to be accepted for who I was as I am.
Hmmm, mused Mary, I can relate to that feeling. I see why your feelings were hurt when I laughed. Would you please tell me more? I am listening. My sister Anna is supposed to give me guidance and advice on presenting myself, Of who I am. But for a long time, she has not been truthful with me. I am afraid if I stop yelling and being so big and full of Hot Air, I will disappear into nothing. Mary said that is an awful fear and makes perfect sense. What can I do to help? Maybe you can talk with my sister and see why she isn't being truthful with me? What is her name again? Anna! We want to speak with Anna. We are here to listen. Is there anything you would like to share today?
No one ever seems to listen to me. Anna spoke in a small voice. I am here. Life is chaos, and I cannot put anything in order with all these BIG HOT, AIR BALLOON PEOPLE. With everyone shouting what they are and what they need at me. It isn't apparent. I want everyone to be happy and prosperous. I am so very angry with Albert for not listening to me. He shouts all the time.
Mary asked, do you both remember when you got along and things worked well? They both said yes. It was before the mother had her first heart attack. That was a very long time ago. We were six years old, Albert said. We felt so helpless. It was our fault. Albert said we would not hold still while she brushed our hair.
Mary said it was not your fault! Your mother had a heart condition and knew getting upset could cause a heart attack.
Christine felt so sad and guilty that she left. Christine is the authentic shapeshifter. Anna said that is when I came in to help. If we could be more like our mother wanted us to be, then she would be well again. Anna said well, where do I belong? Mary said you belong with your mother. A great silence was felt throughout the land when Anna understood. Then, finally, there was an understanding of why some decisions were made so long ago. They had all forgotten. Outside you could hear Christine. I have been trying to tell you for so long. But everyone was shouting, and no one could listen to me.
Christine, would you like to come home? Oh yes, please. It has been so lonely standing outside and looking at everything. But there is no room for me anymore! Anna said I would like to go back home to my mother. That should make room for you.
Mary spoke to Anna. We release you quickly and effortlessly. Go back home from where you belong now. Thank you for helping me survive all these years. Anna disappeared into the air like dust on the wind. She was gone.
Mary asked Christine would you like to come back home again. Home within the body. And there she was, standing next to her brother. But they didn't quite fit anymore. They couldn't connect. Let's ask Albert a question. Are you this body's authentic energy? Albert said no. When did you first get here? Albert replied when she was a baby. She was very sick and needed help. So I came to help. I thought I belonged here. After I got here, she felt better. So, where is your natural home? With her father, it seems. We now want to talk with this body's authentic male side of the shapeshifter. We are here to listen.
I am here! My name is Christopher; I have been watching her all along. I was scared and felt I was too small to help her survive. Without me, she cannot authentically present herself in this world. But we can work together as a team to orchestrate and manifest her goals.
Okay, Albert, are you ready to go back to your home? No! I don't want to lose connection with her now. Mary said we could connect in a higher way through the bond of Grace. I am grateful for your help all these years. But now it's time for me to be just me—my authentic self.
We release you with love and gratitude to go back to your home now. We can reach out through Grace and still connect in a higher way. He turned into a swirl of smoke and swirled away into the sky. Wow, that was amazing. Would Christopher please come into his place now? They embraced and promised never to part again. Mary said let's say the healing words now. "We are One." Quiet peace rippled through the land. Soft and sweet like a familiar soft blanket embracing your soul. All was transformed and made new. All The balloon people were normal-sized and very organized, with a bright yellow light shining from within. They were taking turns talking and being polite. Mary said you have always been very good at shape-shifting. Now that you two are one, it is exciting, and our adventure will be fun.
We would love to honor your superpower of Guidance-and to lead by example. Become a guide for others with your actions. Please step into the spotlight of truth now. When they stepped forward, you could hear the people everywhere shout YES! Their voices rang out like bells. "We are One." You could see the vibrations coming from the center outwards into the universe. The doors were open now to connect to the world.
We can now network and connect to others' resources. To create in this world a lasting change and help others by doing it. Each of us has a unique story and journey within. New adventures await us all.
The inner method of work that I do reminds me. In the end, energy is just energy. Mary took in the energy from her parents as a young child to help her cope with the trauma of her mother's heart attack. Releasing these energies back to her parents allowed her energy to return to her own body again. The inner male and female sides to our energy. A happy ending to another fairytale from within the body. She brings the shadow beliefs into the light to be seen and honored. Once they are, then their proper archetype shines brightly from within.
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This is one of the chapters that will be in my book. Enjoy!
I am Mary Christine, My spiritual journey has led me here kicking and screaming most of the way to this present moment. I desire to be the change in the world I want to see. I am walking away from the old paradigm and stepping through the gateway of my heart into the New. I am not sure where this is going but I trust the alignment with my soul to get me there. Every Step of my journey has led me to this jump off point. I embrace all of it. I choose to jump into this new world with an open heart filled with love. Follow my journey, if you choose. From My Heart to Yours!