Today I let go of my soulmate from the old paradigm . I let go of him, after thirty two years of feeling that heart connection. I let go in gratitude, love in grace. Many people think a soulmate is all romance. I say nonsense!
I will share some of the experience for others and also for myself to let the ribbons of energy flow away, into the past where they belong. I know when our souls are done here we will see each other again and laugh.
Thirty two years ago I was praying for help. For guidance. I was married, with two young children. My husband and I were in a toxic codependent relationship. I am not throwing stones just owning what was between us. Although we had accumulated cars, boats, and a spa. With a custom home, my life felt spiritually empty. I do remember saying I envied others who had such passionate beliefs about god. I didn’t want to follow religion, I had been brought up very catholic and was sent away to catholic school from age seven to age fourteen. All of that was not for me. I was seeking basic truths that have lasted millions of years. Foundational truths to build my life upon. I also craved the feeling of being loved for who I really was. Not the mask I wore for the world as a confident wife and mother. Part of a social community and a leader in my own way of the small story of my life.
Sometimes sacrifice is asked from me to move through another gateway. I Gave up my whole life that I knew, to step forward into the unknown. The long and short story is private to him and I. It was not a love affair. But a deep soul connection felt the moment we met. We created a bubble of time and space and could instantly connect. Long distance psychically. I would think someone please help me with what I am going through. He would just show up. He always showed up. His strength helped me through my hell. We helped each other out of hell. I asked him to never leave me alone. Yet I didn’t want to project my karma on him ever. I ran away out of fear and the intensity of the energy. I wanted to create stability for my two children and to get healthy. We continued our lives making our own separate choices. No matter how wide the divide between us we could connect in a moment. Some months, or years would go by. But if I reached out he always found a way to connect. We do love each other and have a divine love which crosses all realms. So fast forward thirty two years. I have had the blessing in my life knowing there was another soul out there who loved me. Thick and thin old or young none of it mattered. For either of us. We shared Divine love. It really doesn’t matter if anyone believes me. It is a blessing which has had many ripples that went out into the world.
Yesterday we talked for hours as we do about everything. He may be choosing to leave here. I needed to let him know he is never alone. We are as different as black and white. And yet I know his soul and although he has chosen many ways opposite of what I would choose that has led him into great pain. I have chosen my spirit over everything most of the time. I am no angel. Trust me on that. I work with the angelic realm though and they have been a great comfort during difficult times of making choices.
Yesterday I visited him in his hell. What is hell? A Place where we cannot forgive ourselves for choices we have made. For others we may have hurt, along our journey. I know in my heart he can walk out at any time and turn his life into his heaven. I also know I cannot drag him there. Divine love pours down on us all. Some hold up a thimble, some hold umbrellas in fear of the light pouring down. Some dance in this light allowing it’s life giving love to heal, bless and lead the way into this new beginning. I let go today of the blessing of the past with grace, and step through this gateway of my heart with no promises or another to hold my hand. We each walk alone with faith through out gateways.
Free choice of what we desire. I desire to serve the greater good of mankind. I choose to step into this new paradigm. I am grateful for the darkness and pain I have experienced. Now I deeply appreciate the light and fresh new beginnings we can all have. Each of us must choose and walk alone through this gateway of the heart. I have no idea nor can I see the future at this time. I am walking on a bridge between past and future with faith in Divine to catch me if I stumble. Faith that we can each do this if called to do so. Faith that we are always taken care of. Faith that I am worthy of having an abundant, loving life, better than I can picture for myself. So much grander, so much more. I trust my soul to take one step closer to be of service to all of mankind. Let my heart radiate divine love like a lighthouse beacon bringing others safely home.
Free will to step forward and trust I will be provided for. I choose to create the change I desire to see in the world. Serving the greater good of all of us. Sharing All of who I am with who ever needs light to help them on their own personal journey. Thank you for allowing me to share a small fraction of my journey. May it be helpful to another soul out there reaching for the light. I take one step closer to alignment with my soul. Namaste
I am Mary Christine, My spiritual journey has led me here kicking and screaming most of the way to this present moment. I desire to be the change in the world I want to see. I am walking away from the old paradigm and stepping through the gateway of my heart into the New. I am not sure where this is going but I trust the alignment with my soul to get me there. Every Step of my journey has led me to this jump off point. I embrace all of it. I choose to jump into this new world with an open heart filled with love. Follow my journey, if you choose. From My Heart to Yours!