She Dances on Stardust pathways home

The journey continues as I walk within and align with my soul.  I wake after only a few hours of sleep.  Bloody hell,  I had such a great day of sun, & nature to nurture myself .  Now my mind races like ghostly horses with the bit in their mouth.  The tangled thoughts and feelings escape Pandora's box within my heart.  Oh great! My past loves, I do meditation with a sincere inventory,and tears flow.  I realize I need to once again make amends with someone from my past.  But I desire to stay mindful, I ask why?  What are my intentions behind it?  You should know I am a Codependent in recovery for 30 years.   I won’t go into the past because it has led me to now.  The ghostly horses racing through my head whisper to me. Listen!  Feel your fears.  More tears flow.  I decided to not contact them directly.  But to send sincere amends from my heart.  I didn’t know what I didn’t know then.  The more I know , the less I know.  Then I forgave myself for acting from fear. I did love you, I still do and always will.  I share these thoughts and feelings as a way of slowing these ghostly horses down to a walk.  As I pet them, their beautiful bodies relax.   I whisper rest now,  rest now.  I love you.  I Have always loved you since the beginning of time. I embrace them.  They slowly dissipated like a mist swirling around me.  My heart opens just a little bit more.  Oh yes, I remember sometimes it can get lonely on my stardust pathway home.   One can feel lonely even when surrounded by Angels you know.  Listen, in the quiet solitude within,  in the distance you can hear the music from the spheres. Won’t you dance with me along the way?  

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